I feel like I'm so close to death today. My heart, it's exhausted to the point where it can't beat anymore.
I don't want to seek help anymore, I want to take a leap.
I am truly a failure.
I don't want to think of myself this way, but it's the harsh reality.
I'm in desperate need of a moment of tranquility,
But my heart... it's not cooperating.
It's acting up inside my body, and my hand holding the pen can only tremble along with it.