i remember every word i wrote down that day. it was like writing my last. had no idea what was going to happen to me in a day, a week or a month. i was in the darkest place i’ve ever been in my life and no idea if i was getting out of it.
as much as i want to forget about those times they are a part of me now. a part of my psyche, a part of me. i dont want to deny them. there is no use, so i decided to use those words to make something beautiful. i used those words to make textures for this piece. they are engraved into this paper forever, as they are in my mind.
but many has changed since. i have made peace with myself, with the people i love and cherish. they have saved me from hell and they are in these textures as well. they are the silhouettes, the landscapes were seen with them. i have lived these moments with them and they too are now engraved.
this piece is a combination of hatred and love. of peace and war. with myself. i never thought i would get out of it, but with the help of the people i value most i did.
so tell the devil im fine. im here for another year.