Imagine Living an extremely sheltered life. You go from your parent's house straight into the arms of a man 5 years older than you at only 18. The sheltering continues. You are a good girl. You do what you are told. You get married, you go to college, you don't follow the arts or any of that nonsense, you get a degree in business. You make it to the top of the sales food chain, you are married, and one day he turns on you. He tries to kill you. The thanks you get for giving over your life to duty. Is fighting for your breath. You are now 31, and your entire reality has just BURST. You don't know who you are. You don't know what you like. You have only ever done what you thought you were supposed to do. And Eros is there, and he says, hey babe, take my hand, and let's go explore. And off we go, on our Adventures with EROS. Craig's ListOk, let's fast forward six months. I've gone through my initial mourning of the relationship, and I find that Craig's List has a personal ad section. I'm ready to start dating again. I ran my first ad on Craig's List and went to sleep. I woke up with 103 emails, lol. The year was 2010, and I had just gotten my broker's license to sell securities in the USA. I was working for a prestigious firm, which was building me an office on Hawaii's north shore.Rebounding RealitySo, what do I do? I started dating one guy, he’s not just into meth, he’s a dealer. But, not just any dealer. Nahhh, I’m a bitch of extremes yall, this is a dealer to the dealers. He’s super caucasian so he’s high up on the food chain, and my shiny red truck was a superb vehicle to make runs in, new on island and clean as a whistle. It could go anywhere, with no flags. I was the perfect cover. Oh the naivety. Four WordsFrom the very same CL ad, was the thief. Oh, this man. We are still in touch today, and I’m just not gonna say any damn more. Other than that, when I made this piece, I had to go take care of things…Some MFers, can unlock anything. Oops, that was five wordsSuper Sighyah (0.169)At 33 I moved to Thailand. I was known as the teacher who went native. I moved into a traditional Thai Baan on the river in Suphan Buri. My home was on temple grounds, and I lived in an 80 year old house. Next door was a barber, who was a single father also supporting his mother. The river came up, after only 7 days, and that man did everything he could to help me assimilate into my new lifestyle. He showed me the kind of romance that people write story books about. He came to my home every night in his boat, and spent time with me. He was very concerned that I was out there on my own, and he made sure I never felt alone. He helped me establish a connection with Thai people that has grown over the years, and I am forever grateful for the love he poured onto my frozen heart. He definitely cracked through my defenses, after I had given up. Super Sighyah is a Thai superhero, and was his nickname, it fits so well, I had to name the piece after his nickname. He gave me a true “boy next door” experience, and it was in that house that I truly began to heal my soul. Double LifeHe was 19, and I thought I was healed, hah. What a mess. Some of the best times, and most tragic, came from Double Life. Oh, I revisited things from my dysfunctional relationship with my father, and so so much more. I have zero regrets, but ooooo weeeee. This one, was a RIDE. I still ride the scooter he souped up, and I have to warn people when they get on it. Like, go easy on the throttle. People just don’t know the way I live. FULL THROTTLE, AND THEN SOME. The scooter is pink, and bedazzled hehe, and it does NOT play.Twin FlameI can’t say too much, but have you ever had someone who you could fall apart with literally on the floor in a crying mass, and then have some pizza? Yeah, it’s like that sometimes. A literal extension of yourself. When you see us together, we look like one of those couples that looks like each other. We have morphed over the years into the same person, it’s wild beyond all recognition. We are six months apart, have similar tats, the same haircut, and are now about the same physical size lol. It’s truly something to behold.Sculpting RealtySome of you have heard me talk about replacing negative voices from my childhood with more positive voices from my adult life. It’s a way to reprogram a traumatized soul. So, this man taught me to sculpt my own reality. The lessons he taught me were real, and I am grateful to him. His voice will be a permanent resident in my head, as some of the things he did for me helped me conquer my food addiction. Possibly the most positive impact in my life. Even though the relationship was a short three years, and a very unique dynamic, it will forever be one that shaped who I am, and what I believe is possible. MIRACLES HAPPENSIMPly GFEOh boy. That guy, who actually believes the stripper loves him. Yeah, I got him as a client on OnlyFans, and ran with it. Lockdown was rampant, and the Facebook thirst traps were real. I was pulling GFE clients like mad, and I got tangled up with one that was dangerous, and I truly believe I saved a woman's life with the role I played in this dude's life. This man was so abusive that he broke a btiches nose and still will say to everyone’s face she deserved it. It’s truly unbelievable. We had a crazy on again off again 3 years. When someone lives in delusions, dealing with them on the daily is unlike anything most any typical person can fathom. I treated this a bit like a game for a while, he wanted entertainment, and I was gonna get mine too. The push pull of this is taxing, and there is a damn reason working girls deserve the money they get. The highest paid call girls make in lin with stock brokers. I’ve done both jobs, and I can say first hand, the call girl is the harder job. Cirque de Carnival (0.169)Sometimes, it doesn’t matter if you can do acrobatics through a flaming hoop. It’s just straight up, not meant to be. No matter how much you stretch, and try, you are just going to miss, and it’s better to accept it and move on. Once the lights go out at the circus, it’s time to go home. You can’t just run away with the circus, especially when it’s not real. PhilautiaThe main image for Philautia was taken on my 44th birthday. I rented myself a 5 star resort on the beach in Pattaya and had a Staycation. I shot over 300 photos that day. It was a day just for me. I have a tendency to give too much, and you can’t pour from an empty vessel. This was a day of replenishment and true compassionate self love. I no longer seek the company of another to feel love. I am a fountain of love myself, and produce all that I will ever need. Romantic love is it’s own beast and the precursor for pragma or philautia. In my case it has grown into different branches. There will be more artworks coming in the future to showcase all the seven words for love that the Greek have. The Precursors to Adventures with EROSRetracement & Psyche’s PlatterRetracement is a piece that I did summer of 2023 to process many traditional systems that have let me down. Psyche’s Platter named for the Goddess of Soul.Psyche is known for the God of Romantic Love, Eros himself falling in love with her. He took cupid’s bow himself, as Aphrodite, the goddess of self love commanded him to take Psyche down. Eros took the job very seriously and took cupid's bow himself. He came upon Psyche fast asleep, and as he was gazing at her he absentmindedly scratched himself with the arrow for Cupid’s bow. He fell madly in love with Psyche.Psyche’s Platter is part of The Rising Lotus collection, my genesis collection. It’s the last piece available. Retracement was sold faster than any other piece to date. It sold to Hexum, within 36 hours of listing, and that was with a 24 hour auction period. It was one of those moments that made me believe this shit was possible. And it has spawned a whole new collection. Together we will get there. Let’s Grow